hais i spent this year's chinese new year rushing my costumes because i cant go visiting anyway.
due to some superstition that says anyone who is related to a relative who has passed away cannot go for any visiting for that whole year,or receive/give any red packets to anyone.
MYYY RED PACKETSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS QAQ!!!!!!!!!

so anyways....
i am going to have my hellsing shoot (girlycard) on 23rd feb so i have 12 more days to rush finish the incompleted parts.OMGGGG SO EGGCITED FOR THE SHOOT PLEASEEEEE,LIKE FINALLYYYYYYY 8DDDDD!!!
but there is one issue that has kinda held back my progress,and that is his freaking tommy gun NIHSDVDUGOIAESGUIVEIGU.
i have very very very little little few few few experience of making props,and usually those props are super simple.
SO HOPEFULLY A MIRACLE CAN HAPPEN AND I WILL SUCCESSFULLY MAKE THE GUN LOOK DECENT ><.


i have a few other shoots that was suppose to happen some time back,but i guess its gonna get dragged even further.
well i need to rant a little about how i really dislike group cosplays SOMETIMES
there are many things to take note during group coses
-the date/timing for the shoot,not everyone can make it on the same day
-the pace of the group,some people taking a longer time to prepare their stuff
-communication and understanding between the members/ with photogs
-what sort of shots and poses,maybe shots that tells a story?
what i really dislike is a dead group where no one is responding or not even bothering to give ideas or their opinions,and then the plan will just keep dragging and dragging and dragging and  probably after 10 years later we will be able to shoot it
Im glad that so far my alice group isnt like that,but its still pretty hard managing a group...
so from now on,i will try to refrain from cosing with any groups,i will only cos with groups depending on who is in it and whether i know their attitude towards group work.
sometimes even pair cosplans are tiring,so after a few waves of frustration slamming me against the rocks,i have decided to stick mostly to solo plans LOL.
sometimes it gets rather lonely though,having to shoot all by yourself.i really hope i will be able to join groups that are more active and hiong(on) .
so ye end of my short rant LOL.
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its been a long time since i last drew or touched photoshop to colour my drawings
im still struggling with making clean lines and creating shadows/effects/etc/EVERYTHING OTL
ARGHHHH I SUCKKKKK,BUT IM NOT GONNA GIVE UP ANYWAY BECAUSE I LOVE DRAWING TOO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :iconcrypls:
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ah and is finally back from china!!!!happy happy happy!!!!
gonna meet her and a few other friends for dinner soon!cant wait!!
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--personal thoughts--
i think i have been rather cold recently,like before this i was already a little cold,now im like....cold.LOL
hmmm i remember how i used to be so open and crazy and always talking about shit that i have no idea how i came up with.
now i find it a little difficult to even start a conversation,well i cant really assume because it might only be with a few people.hopefully its only with these few people LOL TTATT
i have so much in my mind,but there is too much for me to write out anyway so ye i shall just leave it~~
well i personally feel that,its best to maintain a distant from every single person(well maybe except your family since u grew up with them)
when you maintain a distant from someone,they wont get overly comfortable with you.they will talk to you in a more polite and ''happy'' manner because they are afraid to offend you.they wont ask ridiculous shit from you and be so demanding.
and by maintaining a distant,i wont have to worry about someone getting tired or bored of me,which i feel is already happening.
and it actually feels alot alot happier
i can honestly say that i to get bored of people after spending quite some time with them,but the way i talk to them/treat them will nv change.
i have came to learn to treat people the way they treat me because what for treat them so nicely when they cant do the same.i guess that explains my cold attitude LOLOL.
i hope i will get through this or find a solution to this successfully  (Y)

Wow...its been more than a month since I wrote my last journal entry.
Time passes so quickly!!

I am currently deciding on which school and course I should enter,and my dateline is tomorrow....*panicks*
I feel that this is a pretty big decision because I don't wanna waste my time in poly.
I really really want to enter a course of my interest for example -animation-.
But its really difficult to have a stable future(maybe only in Singapore).
So now I am most probably entering business studies for marketing since its alot easier to find jobs in the future.
Im in a dilemma TTATT....


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And now the cosplay side,

2011=costumes are more complicated and detailed,or more outstanding
2012=costumes are really simple and casual
2013=????
I totally spammed vocaloid in 2011, didn't have time to shoot them in 2012,and now I have to spam shoot them in 2013...
Omggg what is this?!?! I kinda got over the vocaloid craze and am now more orientated towards the anime and game side.so im guessing my outfits are not going to be as outstanding anymore Hahahaha.
Well it has been really fun sewing all those gorgeous costumes.but I guess I am getting more and more broke so ya LOL.
Anyways
I have been planning a few shoots and groups,but due to a few  situations(like my wig not arriving) made me unable to shoot anything.
So now my alr self made costumes are just gonna rot in one corner and haunt me to wear them every single day QAQ!!!

I really can't wait for the shoots and to make the costumes!!!!! <3

Ok bye

Wow...its been more than a month since I wrote my last journal entry.
Time passes to quickly!!

I am currently deciding on which school and course I should enter,and my dateline is tomorrow....*panicks*
I feel that this is a pretty big decision because I don't wanna waste my time in poly.
I really really want to enter a course of my interest for example -animation-.
But its really difficult to have a stable future(maybe only in Singapore).
So now I am most probably entering business studies for marketing since its alot easier to find jobs in the future.
Im in a dilemma TTATT....


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And now the cosplay side,

2011=costumes are more complicated and detailed,or more outstanding
2012=costumes are really simple and casual
2013=????
I totally spammed vocaloid in 2011, didn't have time to shoot them in 2012,and now I have no spam shoot them in 2013...
Omggg what is this?!?! I kinda got over the vocaloid craze and am now more orientated towards the anime and game side.so im guessing my outfits are not going to be as outstanding anymore Hahahaha.
Well it has been really fun sewing all those gorgeous costumes.but I guess I am getting more and more broke so ya LOL.
Anyways
I have been planning a few shoots and groups,but due to a few  situations(like my wig not arriving) made me unable to shoot anything.
So now my alr self made costumes are just gonna rot in one corner and haunt me to wear them every single day QAQ!!!

I really can't wait for the shoots and to make the costumes!!!!! <3

Ok bye

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today is 2nd november
the day of my  olevels literature paper and also the day my grandmother passed away
she is suffering from some lung problem and have some difficulties breathing
she passed away this morning when she was in the hospital
i wasnt able to visit her at the hospital yesterday as i had to focus on my lit paper the following day,thankfully i got to visit her last monday after my social studies paper
her maid told me that she was continuously asking her where i and my sister were,and thats fucking heartbreaking because i didnt get to visit her because of my mother fucking o levels
this year has been an awesome year,it really was,many good and awesome stuff happened and i am grateful for all of it
but if i were to trade all these awesome stuff of the entire year for one more day for my grandma to leave,i will choose my grandma

i remember the time when i used to dislike my grandma when i was a kid,because i felt that she was really nosy and she watches too much TV(i was fucking childish and stupid when i was a child)
but when i got to primary school and matured,i slowly got to love her because i got to understand better,and i realised that she really really loves the entire family,including me
and the unconditional love she gave us was crazy!she wouldn't stop calling us and asking us what we were doing,and i always remeber her ending with ''(in chinese)must work hard ok!i will pray for you!and i will give you a present!"
well she nv failed to keep her promises,and she always gave us angpow(red packet) as a motivation
though i always rejected her giving us money,she just wanted us to feel that our efforts would be paid off...
it is only this year where her body started to get very weak because of a few falling incidents that she had
she became very skinny,she could take 5 hours to get up from the toilet sit,she had no appetite,her body just stopped functioning properly

this morning when my mum fetched me to school,just right before i reached school,she received a call from my grandma's maid and she was crying profusely,and when my mum said ''ahma gone already ah?..."..fuck man,i got the shock of my life
and my mum's face and her reaction....God have mercy on my heart man
i tried my best to concentrate for my lit paper,but i can't seem to stop tearing before and after the paper
but i am glad that she is able to leave in peace,she had a wonderful family who nv once abandoned her,her children loved her dearly and always made sure that she was fine
she didnt feel much(or even no)pain when she left,so i am glad



guys,pls show your loved ones your love now
tell them that u love them or do stuff to show that u do
don't regret when their time comes, don't regret it


and if i write any further i think i will die from drowning because if i continue writing this,my house is gonna become an aquarium
and unfortunately i am not a fish or a marine creature so i shall stop here for now
and my bro is probably shoving biscuits down my throat now to cheer me up

ok so i just found a lost chapter from saint seiya lost canvas,that chapter wasnt translated to english and it was a missing piece in most of the english translated websites
so yes i just had to read it in chinese
that chapter was about regulus becoming one with the earth,and pandora and rhadamanthys confrontation with alone,and my reaction was......
OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG IT WAS SO FREAKING SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
first i cried about regulus dying because he is so freaking cute and optimistic and awesome and young and cute

you only have 3 options when it comes to regulus
1.he is fucking cute and you love him
2.he is fucking cute and you love him
3.he is fucking cute and you love him

and well i didnt really like rhadamanthys at first because he killed kardia(one of my most favourite charas ever),illias and now regulus
so when regulus punched a hole in his chest im like ''HOOOOOO YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH''

BUT AFTER SEEING HIM TRYING TO PROTECT PANDORA AND PANDORA'S UNSPOKEN LOVE FOR HIM ONLY UNTIL THE VERY END
OMGGGGGG I WISH HE DIDNT DIE WTFFFFFFFFFFFF
and i didnt really like pandora at first as well until after seeing her past and her side view,SO RHADAMANTHYS DEATH TOTALLY MADE ME NOT DISLIKE THEM ANYMORE QAQ QAQ QAQ


argh lost canvas has made my cry throughout the entire manga,when albafica died,when manigoldo ,kardia,degel,defteros and Aspros,asmita,regulus,Sisyphos,El Cid,kagaho,Owl Partita,tenma's dad Yoma Mephistopheles,tenma,alone(omg will i ever stop listing out names?),behemoth violate,shion and dohko in saint seiya hades OVA
ALL THESE CHARACTERS DESERVE SOME EXTRA CREDIT FOR MAKING LOST CANVAS SUCH A TOUCHING AND AWESOME MANGA TO READDDDDDD QAQ
my most favourite coupling(well there are only 3 couples,degel x serafina,pandora x rhadamanthys,aiacos x violate,unless you are talking about yaoi pairings 8DDDD)  in the manga would be aiacos(btw he is hot) and violate),and yes i cried like fuck when aiacos confesses to violate after her death AND HOW SHE WAS RESISTING ALONE'S CONTROL EVEN AFTER SHE IS DEAD WHEN HE WAS USING HER AS A PUPPET TO KILL RHADAMANTHYS AS A PUNISHMENT.
OMGGGGGGGGG ALL THE LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3 <3 <3 <3
ok,i cried at every chapter LOLOLOLOL
LET ME HUG YOU ALLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
even though alone is like one of my fav charas as well,i feel like punching him for killing off some people,BUT ITS ALL THE SAKE FOR THE DRAMA AND LOVEY DOVEY MOMENTS RIGHT?!?!?!
oh and i ship hades,really really badly...HADES SAMAAAAAAAAAAA~~<3!!!*worships the king of the underworld*


Shiori Teshirogi is an amazing author and artist <3 AND WHATS BEST IS THAT SHE IS NOW WRITING A SEQUEL TO LOST CANVAS,EVERY BOOK SHOWS THE PAST OF EVERY GOLD SAINT,
I HOPE THAT THEY WILL SHOW THE PAST OF THE THREE JUDGES AS WELL OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
kurumada did the right thing by asking her to write lost canvas,THAT WAS THE BEST THING YOU EVER DID MAN!(Y)

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO WRITE ABOUT THIS AWESOME MANGA WHICH IS CURRENTLY MY MOST FAVOURITE BESIDES FAIRY TAIL(fairy tail makes me cry real badly to LOL,but not as bad as lost canvas)



oh and the recent new series saint seiya omega,well..im not really liking it,but its kinda improving with its story plot and fighting scenes
well the new group is definitely better than the previous group with seiya shiryu hyoga shun ikki
but im still loving lost canvas the most,WHERE ALL THE GOLD SAINTS ARE AWESOMEEEEEEE I TELL YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU,EVEN THE EVIL CHARACTERS HAVE THEIR SOFT SIDES OH GOD,SOMEONE CONTROL MY OVARIES FROM EXPLODING FOR THE 9999999999999 TH TIME
and i even like tenma (i usually dislike the main character because i find them too self righteous)
tenma is a pretty unique character because he isnt fighting for the world but actually for his relationship with his best friend,and even if he is fighting for the world,he is only fighting for it because he remembered how alone used to love the world
SO HE IS THE BESTES FRIEND EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR <3 <3

oh and i love his seiyu LOL! Tetsuya Kakihara,voice actor of pegasus tenma,natsu dragneel,and dragon ryuho from saint seiya omega
omg its such a coincedence
when i finished watching and reading lost canvas,i was really emoing about it ending
so when i started watching fairy tail and when natsu appeared ''OMFG ISNT THAT TENMA'S SEIYU!??!?!!?"
and when lucy (aya hirano) appeared "OMFG ISNT THAT SASHA'S SEIYU"
AND THERE ARE MANY OTHER LOST CANVAS SEIYU'S WHO ALSO VOICED CHARAS IN FAIRY TAIL SO YES MY WORLD IS COMPLETE AND I AM HAPPY HAHA.HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AND PANDORA'S SEIYU IS NANA MIZUKI OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG,HER SINGING IS GOD LIKE I TELL YOU

so ya i will probably write another journal with all thiese spasms and ovaries explosion after my o levels
AND I CANT WAIT TO START SEWING MY COSTUMES AGAIN,ESPECIALLY COUGHCOUGH KNOWS WHO HAHA <3 <3 <3
AND ITS ALR PRETTY OBVIOUS

OK BYE
AND I ENCOURAGE YOU ALL TO READ SAINT SEIYA LOST CANVAS!!!!PLEASE SUPPORT THAT MANGA AND DROWN YOURSELF IN YOURS AND MY TEARS
LETS CRY AND SPAZZ TGT AT THE SAME TIME,WHO EVER WANTS TO COME AND TALK TO ME ABOUT SAINT SEIYA LOST CANVAS IS WELCOMED
and i am still loving hades <3

soooooo i finally submitted my olevel art coursework last thursday,its been a rather tough journey but it was all worth it!
my drawing skills improved tremendously and i am now able to come up with designs and sketches very quickly
~the weather really sucks now *perspiring like mad*~
olevel is only one month away and i am FREAKING OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT,so i watch fairy tail when i am free to relieve stress

did i mention fairy tail is awesome???
ITS FREAKING AWESOME HAHA!<3
i only started watching it a 2 months ago and i am currently at the part where zeref first appear
and.he.is.such.a.cutie.omg
*when zeref cries,I CRYY AS WELL BECAUSE HE IS SO FREAKING DARN CUTE WHEN HE CRIES OMGGGGGGGG <3 <3 <3*
not to mention jellal,mystogan,freed,loki,gray and natsu as well
omgggggggggggggg fairy tail is full of cute guys HAHA!!


its been a long time since i cosplayed as well,i have not sewed a thing since may
i hope my sewing skills will not deprove or anything OTL
*sewing level decreases,drawing skills increases*
oh!and i got a hang of using photoshop to colour pictures!kinda glad that i finally manage to master it*recalss the painful one month trying to learncolouring with photoshop*


ye i should get my lazy ass to go and study now
byeeeeeeeeee~~!

heya~!
recently,i have been losing my motivation for cosplay
there are a few reasons why
there is a lot of politics in the cosplay world,ppl making use of each other,ppl hurting each other for extremely stupid reason,some ppl starting shitstorms or drama because they have nothing better to do,ppl discriminating each other just because of their looks.
i especially dislike it when ppl flame those who are extremely new to cosplay,like come on,they just joined the cosplay world and they are probably unsure of what ppl are unhappy with,they might have ''ruined'' your fav but im pretty sure they didnt do it on purpose right?why dont we just give them a chance and teach them the right ways?instead of just flaming them online?
would u want the same to happen to you?treat others the way u want to be treated alright?gosh..
and there is a couple of other shit,many many politics stuff and many ppl who lack EQ


i have been really unhappy with my cosplays for this whole year,probably because i do not have the time to put my heart into it.
i have my O levels examiniation this year and it is taking up a lot of my time,so ye,i do not have time to sew or shoot or do anything cosplay related.
i feel that my coses last year was a hell lot better than this years,its like i have degraded...
everytime i look at my pictures for this year,im like ''WTF AM I DOING OMG??????THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!''
ppl have been telling me that the reason why i am losing my motivation is because i am really busy or my expectations for myself has become greater,well some part of me hopes its true.


some of my friends felt disappointed that i have considered stoping cosplay by the end of next year
well thanks guys for feeling that way though u dont have to haha!i feel that i am loved and needed when u guys told me that ahhaha!so really thank you so much!!!

i am going to complete all my plans for next year,and from there i will see whether i should continue anot
i am starting to get back my love for drawing as well since i hardly cosplay now,and i have considered turing my deviantart account into a illustrastion on instead of a cosplay one.
sooooo i have been researching on how manga artist plan,write,draw their characters,and i absolutely love it!!
its like u can create and entire world by yourself and how u want it to be!(omg am i delusional?) XD

AND YESSSS I STILL LOVE SAINT SEIYA LOST CANVAS AND I AM STILL NOT SICK OF IT EVEN AFTER READING AND WATCHING IT 3 TIMES STRAIGHT HAHAHAHAHAH <3 <3 <3 <3

so ye anyways!gonna reshoot magnet lily and meiko next week!!can't wait for it hahah,and HOPEFULLY it will reach my expectations this time..

I just rmb that I will just be wasting my time arguing with u because nothing will get into your brain.it has been like that since we became friends

If u wanna accuse me of going to daiso to steal eye lashes,go ahead.
I know wat I didn't do,and what i will never do
and I don't rmb me not being able to afford something that cost $2 lol
And if u are so sure that your two witnesses saw me and stealing things,go ahead
report to the police then,go to the surveillance camera and look for evidence then

All I can say is,I will not go to such a low level and make up lies about someone committing crimes just because I wanna get pp to support me
Now that is just pathetic,it just shows how insecure u are feeling so u need to deliberately get support from others who don't know wat is going on.
Living your life as a liar isn't gonna be good for u alright?
I will just let karma do wat it should do
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well anyways,i have been thinking through and reflecting on myself
what i have done,what i should do,what is meant to be
and i realise,there has been many times i forgot what my friends meant to me and what they have did for me,so i start to feel that i am all on my own,only able to depend on myself because others can't help me.
But after this shit happened,I realise that ,''hey,they are always the ones there for me''.
But I didn't remind myself often that they are the ones who made life alot more happier for me.
They tolerate us,teach us,forgive us,love us,accept us
and they have really given me the greatest gift,and that is being my friend
everytime i have problems with 'her',i realise that is always the one there for me,protecting me even though she knows i can stand for myself
because she knows what i fight for and know how i am feeling,and she is always there to say ''hey,u deserve better''
she has really thought me alot of stuff,how i should handle a situation more calmly,what i should care and should not care
and she has passed me her most awesome technique 'the art and power of ignore' XD

i have alot more friends i wanna thank,but i guess i will spent tomorrow writing theirs (needs to rush her own school work OTL)(will edit this journal to write theirs tmr)
and this quote ''because we spend so much time hating others,we dont spend enough time loving others'' has really really inspired me alot,to love my friends and family more and not care about these ppl
I really love my friends,they are really one of the greatest gift from god :'D

yuegene fay finally came to singapore!!!
i waited for five years to finally meet her in person and now i did!!!!!!!!!
yuegene was one of those who inspired me into joining cosplay,i can still rmb the time when i first saw her cosplay in 2008,my reaction was''HOLYYYY SHITTT THIS COSER IS FUCKING AWESOME OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!''
the amount of effort she put into her cosplays is QAQ
and her cosplays is QAQ
her everything is QAQ
she is QAQ

QAQ=too awesome to be explained or described

thank you yuegene  for letting me take pictures with you!!thank you so much for your coscard also!!i am very very very fortunate to recieve your limited edition coscards!!!i will always cherish these precious babies!!!!
*goes to buy an album just for yuegene's coscard*
its really a great pleasure to meet u,thank you for coming to singapore!
u have inspired me to put in more effort into my cosplays!
i hope u like my present that me and bought for u!!!
i can die peacefully now LOL

thank you takahan and stephanie snowheart for organizing the event!!
thank you for the thailand team c4 for teaching the singapore cosplayers on how to make cosplay props!U GUYS ARE GREAT!!!!
those who took part in the competition,u guys were AMAZINGGG~!your skit,costume,props are god like! QAQ

i am really really glad,i look forward to meeting different cosplayers from different countries!!!
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i had lotsa fun at acm with my group of friends!!!(too many to mention)
thank you for making this an awesome event!
i look forward to meet and talk about weird stuff with u guys again HAHAHAHAHA!!!('s shitting techniques book OMG LOL

i had a marchen shoot with my team last saturday!!on 11th may 2012

~cosplayers~
Marchen-
Elyse(doll)-   
Elisabeth(saint) -
Nonne(nun) -
Buranko(waitress) -
Schneewittchen(Snow White) -
Idoko(servant) -
Dornröschen (Sleeping Beauty) -
tettere(Prince of sleeping beauty) -
blue  Beard's Wife - Saku Miyuki


~photogs~






~helpers~




costume

i only joined this group two days before the shoot as emmelia had some matters so she couldnt make it,so i was a last minute replacement as the nun
emmelia thank you so much for lending me the costume!!!!!!!!<3

on friday had to chiong to daiso to buy materials and chiong my cross!!
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-spam watch marchen video on train
-ppl stare at my awesome stick
-ppl stare at my shirt with 's face on it
-came out of ang mo kio station to meet the rest
-waste time in toilet
-called the rest and found out we were suppose to meet at yio chu kang
-feel stupid
-meet :iconcosmic-decadence first:
-went to 's condo
-met the rest in fuction room
-almost bang into the glass cause i thought it was a door
-prepare
-tie cross tgt
-DO UNGLAM POSES


extremely sorry to the photogs are we started 2 hours late!!>.<
and thank you so much for helping us set up the table!

i really had alot of fun with this team!!!thank you so much for asking me to be the last minute replacement(sounds abit weird bt ah well~)!!!
I CANT WAIT FOR OUR RESHOOT OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i will be doing a different character this time
i should nv do a nun again cause christians and catholics who see the pictures(i am a christian btw)is gonna feel offended LOL!!!!
I AM A SINFUL NUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN


thank you photogs who came down to shoot us!!!!we really really appreciate it and we are very sorry for starting late again!!!!!!
hope to shoot with u all again!!!



*ps i have alot more to write but its too long alr*

i have been drawing anime like crazy recently,i love drawing LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!

gonna upload some anime pictures drawn by me after my o levels

the first 12 will be pictures of the titans in greek mythology muahahha,
i designed each chara according to the thing they are in charged of (example chronos in charge of time),and the feel they give me
i have this saint seiya obssession now after watching all the saint seiya series,so my pictures will be saint seiya inspired
i will try my best to colour them properly!!!
i will also be uploading my o level art works
well lets just say i dont want my deviantart account to be created just for cosplay pictures(wants more variety muuhahah)


recently have been stalking 's gallery as she has a set of seriously awesome artworks of the gods in greek mythology
she also did short mangas of specific gods,and every story is so well drawn and the plot is extremely cute!
*her version of hades made my nose bleed non stop*
PLS DO CHECK UP HER GALLERY!!!


if u like fantasy, is the perfect artist for u
her art works are just AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGGG~
the way she presents  her work is <3
been stalking her gallery as well

HOW DO PPL LEARN TO COLOUR SO AWESOMELY WITH PHOTOSHOP?!?!?!?!?!?
I NEED TO LEARN IT AS WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! QAQ







ya ok bye

SCHOOL LIFE I HATE YOU LOL

this 3 months are always the worst months of the year if u are a secondary school student
competitions coming,right after competitions there are exams
life is super hectic OTL
have been feeling very shitty for the past few weeks as well
so many problems going on
family problems,sch problems,everywhere problemsss LOL

well this is my final year in secondary sch,and yes im 16 haha!(i know i look 19..T.T)


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COSPLAY WORLD,I WILL COME BACK AFTER MY OLEVELS HAS ENDED

i cant wait for next year as i will start being more active in the cosplay world again!
im finally going to cos stuff that i have wanted to cos more than 2 years ago!!but i ended up doing vocaloid first when i first started cosplaying...

well i wont be cosing vocaloid that often anymore
the last 2 vocaloid plans for this year is servant of evil with and sandplay luka(paiseh,i just love sandplay too much HHAHAH)
i cant wait to start making their outfits oh mai goshh!!!


gonna cos saint seiya  and warriors orochi next year!!I CANT WAIT!!!I ABSOLUTELY LOVE SAINT SEIYA AND GAMES BY KOEI!!!!!!!!
(currently spreading the love for saint seiya lost canvas because that show have too many bishies and the plot is so damn awesome)

i have only one vocaloid plan next year,and of course it will be megurine luka
all my coses next year requires making props or armours,so i shall start practicing now!!

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FEELINGS

well,i have been asking myself many times whether i should stop cosplaying permanently since cosfest in Feb
i kinda lost the motivation as i dont see myself improving at all,and it has been a while since i cosed something that i really truely sincerely loved like imitation black,magnet,sandplay and loveless xxx
i honestly have not been having fun during cosplay shoots or events,maybe its cause im not cosing stuff that i ABSOLUTELY LOVE
so i have decided to ONLY  cos stuff that i really LOVE next year,i cannot give in so easily for ppl who jio me to join their teams blah blah
so im very sincerely sorry to those groups that i have backed out from,i want to be myself and do what i truly want to


well i really love my friends from the cosplay world,as it seems so much more fun,and there are ppl who can listen to me and understand how i feel
LOVE YA GUYS!!!!~ <3

well im really hyped up for my cosplans now!but i need to concentrate on my studies first!!!

me and have been discussing about whether to create a facebook page for fun!!!
well we finally created one haha!
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just celebrated my birthday ysd and i had THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank you all so much for coming to my bday!!









ynex
william thjin
data ronin

i really really enjoyed my bday this year,it was the best so far!
had a ''nightwalker''shoot with ,it was a fun and omake and weird and crazy shoot!!!(nightwalker by kagamine len)
this time twinny did len and i did rin!!we wanted this to be super omake because i was manlier than twinny,and twinny was cuter than me,so when we switch characters,we will both look like super ghey trannies ahaha!!
thank you , and william for shooting us!!!


good thing wanted to eat chicken,cause that chicken IS DA BEST I HAVE EVER TASTED MAN!!!!! <3
after dinner we had cake, and u guys super obvious sia!!!HAHAHAH!!!ESPECIALLY OMG ARE U TOO INNOCENT??LOL
omg WHY U GUYS GO AND PUT CREAM ON MY FACE!!!!NOW I HAVE SO MANY PIMPLES!!!!!!!!T.T
(but it was enjoyable )
after having cake we went to the highest level of vivo with all the water thingies watever LOL!
have an awesome random shooting session and talking session!!!
the moon and weather was dammu awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really what would my life be like if i didnt meet them?
im really grateful for everything u guys have done for me
thank you for all the wonderful and meaningful gifts!!!i really love them all!!(letters are actually my favourite part of the present 8D)
thank you so damn much for helping me organise this party!!!

those who gave me the letters,u guys will touched my heart
especially twinny's letter,god i cried after reading it QAQ
her so damn meaningful troll present and small booklet with all our memories
2 days ago(which was one day before the celebration) i created an album called''le fliptable memories'',i uploaded some of our pictures we took tgt in the past
a few weeks ago when twinny was making that booklet secretly,she chose some of the same pictures that i uploaded,THIS IS EVIDENCE THAT WE HAVE TWIN TELEPATHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


after this celebration and 2011,i have been thinking alot
i would  like to thank leemin for the past 3 years in sec sch,even though we had many conflicts and arguements,i felt that it was all worth it.
i had made me learn so much,sooo soooo much.i was because of u i have learn how important friendship and appreciation is,and how everyone is being taken for granted.i would like to make a change in my life
we were always afraid to tell each other about our feelings,and we end up exploding in the end and backstab each other.
my maturity have really leveled up because of u,i have learnt when i should tolerate and when i shouldnt.
its because of u i have learn how hurtful is it to critiize ppl's looks and judging others.those 3 years have been miserable,but it was all part of god's plan to make me a more mature person
its because of u i have learn to be more humble and reply ppl in a more patient way,and not ignore them when they are talking to me,and always listen to wat they have to say.
i have learnt to find the courage in me to tell someone my honest feelings immediately instead of keeping them until i explode
it was because u couldnt give me any of these things,i feel that others dont deserve to be treated like how i was being treated by you.
u helped me learn one most important thing,and that is to not let others take advantage of my forgivness
u helped me visualize one of my goals in life,and that is to nv ever do what u did


2011 was the year that made me realise how many things i have been missing out on
the most grateful thing in 2010 was meeting ,she really really made a very great impact in my life
whatever she has done for me,i am grateful for every single thing
she has taught me on how to let go,and how to find courage,and how to make a stand
she has taught me on how to be more positive and look at the beauty in others instead of just looking at their bad points
i have learnt that ''ignorance is bliss'' from her(though im still learning it -.-)
she tries to protect me from stuff that i am oblivious to
her existence really just makes me a happy girl,having her as a friend just makes me feel like everyday is ''appreciation day''
she is really my true best friend and i really love her
thanks so much for ever meeting me angela <3

ok its been a week since i came back from KL
i think its time for me to write about comic fiesta...

comic fiesta wasnt bad,i only went on day 2 and i heard from many ppl that day 1 sucked cause of the horrible crowd
good thing i didnt go on day 1,phew~!

i was suppose to go for eoy but decided not to go in the end as i feel that my partner doesnt have the heart to cooperate with me,and if we both went tgt for eoy we would just screw the event up for each other
so i decided to go for the event where most of my friends are going and it would a total blast if i joined them for the event!

i did imitation black len,and i felt that my dress was a great success!!all the hard work to make the dress totally paid off!

i need to thank for shooting me and for our blame of angel shoot!it was a great honour working with u!thanks for driving us around!!
sorry for freaking out at the start of the shoot,we thought u were the serious scary kind haha!




i was thinking alot about friends and cosplay during the trip,and i realise that some sacrifices were to be made if i wan to help my friends
sometimes i wonder if i am at fault for making some ppl feel shitty about themselves,i feel the guilt even though i clearly didnt do anything.
if my existence in the cosplay world is making some of my beloved ones feel so damn bloody shitty about themselves,then in my opinions,the best choice is for me to leave the cosplay scene for a while.let them find their strength,then return to the cosplay world


i will be stopping cosplay until cosfest in july,im stopping partly cause of my skin and body built
i am a swimmer so i have super tanned skin and mascular body which is suited for guy cosplays,but i REALLY REALLY LOVE cosplaying girls especially the sexy kind(for example panty,luka and many more),
but my body is really getting into the way of my cosplays,so i will only join back the cosplay scene after may when my swimming activities will officially stop
its tiring to keep spamming foundation on your body and then suffer the feeling of not doing well cause of your skin and body built
so i really dont like it when ppl say that i look good at every angle and stuff because they dont know my weaknesses
i have plenty of weaknesses!!they make it sound like everything goes smoothly for me,but i am actually putting in alot alot of effort to improve my cosplays and look good.i struggle alot when i cosplay,but i try to think confident so that i can convince myself that i will be able to do it



i will be cosplaying my OC(own character) on cosfest,so ya u wont be able to identify who in the world i am cosplaying as haha!
see you guys on cosfest~!

guys pls help me advertise my sales thread!!!!!!!!!!im trying to sell away my stuff so that i can earn back my money to do new cosplays!!!
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(album for everything)




sandplay of the singing dragon
meiko
selfmade
costume=$140(cause of workman ship and fabric)
wig=$30
shoes=$70
u can have everything at $230

~costume includes~
black coat+red shirt+skirt+stocking+gloves+chain
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sandplay of the singing dragon
haku
bought from taobao for $150
selling for :$110
only costume
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dark wood circus
meiko
$70
costume+headset+neck thingy
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BROWN WIG
$25
can be used for other characters with short brown hair also!!!i used it for meiko
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panty (film festival gown version)
$115
costume only
comes with earings,necklace,bangles and head accesories
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pink wig
luka
selling for :$40
worn once
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selling:$18
bought at :$30
size 39
worn once
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KAIKO default version
utauloid
selling:$110
tailored
quality of costume is awesome,workman ship and fabric rocks!!!!

costume+earmuff+glove
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star driver
sakana
wig:$35
costume:$90
worn once
tailored
the dress has around 3 or 4 layers,fabric is the flowy kind
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day 1 was quite failed cause of some exhibition down stairs that took up all the space,so cosplayers cant enter that area....*doesnt bother writing a journal on day 1*....

anyways i shall move on to day 2

~DAY 2~
DAY 2 WAS AWESOME OMG!!!!! <3
finally did hakamairi with twinny
it was our first plan together since we met but we only did it after 1 whole year!!!
SO DAMN BLOODY EXCITED WHEN WE STARTED SPAMMING RED COLOURING ON OUR LEGS!!!
twinny tailored her costume and helped me to make mine ONE DAY before day 2


need to thank her so much for helping me
-chiong my costume the day before day 2
-make my horns for me
-painfully glue my skull and eyeballs to my headband
-lending me her wig
-helping me paint my stick!!


she is seriously awesome man,awesomemest friend i had <3

prepared in the morning ,the same routine for every event
when we started spamming blood on our legs,we got so damn happy haha!finally we are doing something bloody!!
twinny dirtied the floor when she walked around as the dye wasnt dry,so we ended up mopping the floor before we left haha!
waited for cab downstairs my house with alot of people staring at us...(is too used to it -.-)
the sun was awesome like during comifest 1 so we started camwhoring
then this friendly uncle started talking to us<3
cabbed and reached afa

we camwhored with many friends during day 2,made many new friends as well!
and did their awesome girasama!!!they look awesome tgt man!
*all pictures with friends up on facebook,,too many pictures and people to talk about *
and ynex did their cute len and rin!!WE ARE A HAPPY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we ran all around having fun with so many people
i need to thank for helping me make afa  day 2 an awesome experience,after such a long time,i finally had fun during an event again!!
we plan to redo hakamairi*the more improved version* on some other event!!

THANKS SO MUCH TWINNY!!!!!!! <3

loveless xxx
kagamine len solo

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~photogs~

william thjin

cosers:me and

twinny and i decided to have to the shoot tgt cause its kinda selfish to ask 2 photogs to spare their time for us on different days
couldnt make it sadly
we shot at fortcanning,as we couldnt go to tyseral house due to the bad weather
met many many friends at fort canning haha

started shooting around 1 till 6 plus,first time i ever had such a long shoot!!!
had many successful pictures this time round,credits go to the photogs!!
twnny and i wore slippers HAHAHAHA!!!!*im wearing a long dress as u can see*

twinny and i kanna bitten by ants like a no tmr,poor twinny's leg was injured...T.T
cant wait for the picturs to come out!!!!><
THANKS SO MUCH FOR THIS AMAZING SHOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now imma chionging afa costume like a no tmr,pls look for me at afa as sandplay meiko with a sandplay kaito on day 1!!!and hakamairi len and rin on day 2~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!